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07/28/14

I’m sorry if my negativity hurt your feelings dear followers :( I really don’t know where I can pour out my feelings, everyone in my life won’t be interested to understand me. I know most of you aren’t interested as well but I just want to say that I won’t be mad if you guys want to unfollow me



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07/28/14

Mom spent hundreds on my Eid outfit but I turned out to be fat and ugly in it because I can’t resist food and keep on eating and I’ve gained weight and be fat again. Months ago I promised myself I would be prettier for this year’s Eid and I also promised myself that I will feel more confident about my body this year but it only happened for a short period of time because I am a stupid piece of stupid fucking shit I keep on eating and I was too lazy to work out again. I’m not sad, I’m not depressed, I’m just disappointed with myself. Why is it I’m only good at disappointing myself and people around me? Sometimes I think it’s better if I just… Disappear forever. Nobody will miss me because I’m such a loser.



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07/28/14

I will try my very best to hide my stupid feelings for the sake of my family’s happiness. Nobody deserves to be a part of my life’s agony. I’m a worthless piece of shit.



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07/28/14

My family seems so happy on this beautiful day (it’s Eid today) but I’m the only one who looked and feel like a fucking piece of shit.



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07/28/14

Sometimes there comes a time when I feel so down and I feel like hating everybody and blaming myself for all the bad things that already happened in my life.

And that day is today. I started to believe that depression is a real thing and it’s happening to me. I thought I was a happy son of a bitch but no I’m not, that happiness is just a disguise for the society to judge at.



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07/25/14

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07/24/14